We all go through our own trials and tribulations my story is not much different then the thousands of other families out there that have had a loved one imprisoned by drugs. Jesus says “Pick up your cross and follow me” that statement alone helped me get through the hardest of times and helped me realize that what I was going through was minimal compared to what Jesus had to go through.
About five years ago I met a man that I fell in love with had a baby with and married… (That was the happy parts) not knowing when I met him that he was a heroine addict I was clueless and unaware at what my life was going to become. I found out he was using drugs about a year into our relationship it took me a while to learn how to deal with a drug user… I would call him every name in the book belittle him and tell him I wanted him out of my life not knowing all I was going was adding fuel to the fire. I was just giving him a reason to go out drug again. My husband is a loving man and a good man when he wasn’t using but he had a history when he was born he was a blue baby (baby addicted to heroine). His mother left him in places like crack houses and on drug sets when he was only 2 years old. Then he went from foster home to foster home until he was finally adopted by wonderful loving parents who did everything they could to try and give him a life that was worth living… but unfortunately the damage had already been done and their efforts were shattered. He dropped out of school when he was in 8th grade by the time he was 23 he had been in 7 different rehabs and had spent time in jail. At this point he’s 29 and has been to 14 different rehabs I met him when he was 23 so half of the rehabs he’s been in has been during his relationship with me. He has overdosed twice on heroine been in 3 crisis units and given me one big headache. I had to claim bankruptcy at age 21 do to his drug use I was about 45,000 dollars in debt. The last drug binge he had he had met someone that was supplying him with all his drugs he was worse than I had ever seen him and it was one of the hardest things I’ve ever had to deal with but God led me and my mother in law to a wonderful place that healed him and he has been clean ever since. People say just take one day at a time in my life its moment to moment.
During my husbands addiction I have learned so much and I’ve dealt with so much and if all you need is someone to talk to about what your going through or maybe you think you have reached a dead end and don’t know where to go from here please don’t hesitate to contact me to see if maybe I have some resources available for you. Thanks and God bless.
